i miss my baby  hella much.

i love you josh.

uhhhh .. goodbye xanga

i love u josh

im bored i feel like bloggin again..

damn.. been so busy lately. well today i watched boogeyman wit j0sh & jeanie. Scary? yes. but i thought it was dumb josh liked it tho. after the movie.. chilled there for a while & i saw hella familiar faces. then got picked up by j0sh`s mom.. dropped jeanie off then i chilled @ j0sh`s house for a bit. then yea went home. im still pissed cuz i didnt get my damn permit! shiit! now i have to wait another week. grrreat. im so tired i havent gotten much sleep in the past like 2 weeks. im hella glad EZ driving is over. ima kinda miss it tho.. it was fun. but yea badminton conditioning is hella tiring.. im hella outta shape. hella sad i knoe. hahaaa.& plus we bout to learn a new routine for hip-hop club. yeeee! can`t wait. it gon be niiice! haha. aw i jus remembered i left my strawberry shake at josh`s house. damnit! haha. MANNNN im bout to be hella fuckn broke. im pissed offa that too cuz i HELLLLA wanna get the black & green 13`s comin out on tha 26. aw man if i get those ima be so fuckn happy i`ll cry. well ok mayb not cry but ima be hella happy! brian better get me those! haha all he got me was the picture. neways.. hmm oh yeea valentine`s day is comin up & i actually have a valentine this year! 0hh shiit son! haha i never had a REAL valentine before feel me but yea this year different. hahaa. im sleepy i think ima go to sleep now. josh is spose to call me but im guessin he forgot that poo-poo head. oh well i still love him. haha ima jus say a lil somn somn tho feel me. haha i dont think anyone reads this shiit anyways.

i found my happiness.. haha i really did. he makes me feel things i never felt before in a guy. i think i finally made the right decision.. hehe good job to issa! i love him sooo much it hurts. i dont care if this sounds cheezy but hey it`s how i feel & he makes me feel so goooood. i can get mad over the littlest things about him but it dont even matter cuz that makes me want him & love him even more. hahaa i think he drugged me or whatever. haha i love this f0o so much.. ima die if he ever left me.. & thats on tha real cuz. i love u joshua Happy two monthversary behbeh. *12.o9.o4* Tell me againnnn.. that we`ll be l0vers & friennnddsss..

0h yea i want to say sumthin else to cuz yea iono where else to say it

i feel so used.. as if no one really cares about how i feel only how they feel. i hate it. i hate this feeling. it seems as if no one gives a shit about what i have to go thru cept for maybe 1 or 2 people & everyone else who claim they do is juss fuckin lyin. if they really did they would actually listen to what i gotta say not jus hear it feel me. but whatever i feel as if people take me for granted & take advantage of me. i think ima change my attitude & if ya`ll dont like it i could care less. i`ve done soo much for people & they dont even show no gratefulness.. if thats a word but yeea. ima do somethin nice for me for once & actually make myself feel good about myself unlike before putting everyhing else first besides my own needs.

shiit i must be really sleepy cuz i dont think im makin any sense. whatever.. 0hh shiit my baby callin me! gotta go byee!

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hm .. i feel lyk bloggin again cuz im bored. lets see .. uhhh HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

what did i do lately? uhh yesterday i went to the movies wit j0sh & we watched white noise. there was hella people there. hella crowded. but yea it was arrite .. sho was some freaky sheeeeit. but not as freaky as the GRUDGE. that scared the shyt outta me. then we waited for his mama to come pick us up then i went over to his house like around 8:30? yeea then juss chilled there for a while & watched family guy. hahah sweear we always be watchin family guy. josh is a nerd. haahaa SIKE. family guy`s tight son! haha. yeea then got home around 10:30 went to sleep hella early like around 11:50. & had like 11 hours of sleep. mmm it was niice. then yea found out i couldnt go to south city cuz it was supposedly gonna be 'storming' tonight. fucking bullshit. i could`ve went to serramonte & bought erryone`s presents now its gon be even later cuz im goin to the mall NEXT week. grreat.

jeanie juss left & that kinda sux cuz we was havin some crazy funn! haaha. 0h shiit S0N! AH-SH00M? haha thhaaa fahk i was thinkn? haaaha. damn i gots l0tsa hw to do buhhh i dont feel like doin it. ehhh damn hw. WHO tha hell gives hw on weekends?!! my damn teachers. fahkn -------. whatever. haha

0hhh lemme juss say i L0VE MY J0SHWA!! N i D0NT CARE WHAT nobody SAYS. i l0ve j0sh. literally tho & fuck what u think or say cuz ima stay wit this boy for a L0NG ass time. & i kno that for a fact cuz he will never do me wrong. he told me so. but if he does [which i highly doubt] let me learn frum my 0WN mistake k? teehee. gaahhh i hate damn rumors. but whatever BELIEVE what u wanna believe. I kno whats tru & whats not so like they say. 'FUCK WHAT THEY HEARD' show me proof that its true BETCH. heeeh well ima go before i go off on this shyt.

BYEEE to whoever reads this shiit. MUAH!